Please stay.
I know I’ve been focused on my everyday heartbreak, but suddenly it doesn’t matter anymore.
You are all that matters.
You are all I want.
I want you in my life.
I need you in my life.
I couldn’t bear to lose you now.
Not yet.
It’s too soon.
Way too soon.
Not because I’m selfish and I just want you to stay.
Even though I am. And I do.
But simply because your light is just so needed in this world.
By me.
By all of us around you.
We need to bathe in your brilliant light.
Absorb your life-giving energy.
Breathe in your whole being because you are a breath of fresh air.
I might not have faced my own mortality yet, but I seen a tiny glimpse of yours and I am not ready to live in a world without you yet.
Maybe ever.
My heart is only beginning to understand this.
And yet, of course I’ve understood it all along.
In all ways.
My own everyday heartbreak means nothing now.
Not when your mortality is at stake.
A beloved elder I still need.
A young bright light whose world makes them weary and hurting.
A new soul connection who lives life to its fullest and refuses to wait for anyone else whose fervor doesn’t match their own.
Please don’t go.
I know I’ve been absorbed in my own world.
Dare I say self-absorbed.
For fuck’s sake.
I try to believe I focus on others more than myself.
But in this case, I’m not sure I have.
And I’m sorry, love.
I’m so sorry.
My self-absorption kept me from seeing you for a moment.
And in short order, I’ve been shown what I could lose.
I am here, love.
I. Am. Here.
I want to have more time with you.
Please don’t go.
My world would quite simple not be the same without you.
I know this.
I knew this.
And now I know it even more.
I want many more minutes with you.
More days.
More smiles.
More love.
More joy.
More lessons.
I want more of it all.
I will even take more pain if it means you stay.
Please stay, love.
My heart wants more of your heart.
My soul needs more of your soul.
And I want to give you more of my heart and soul.
You deserve that, love.
You deserve nothing less than all of my heart and soul.
Nothing less.
I’m sorry I didn’t offer enough before now.
Before today.
Before this pain.
I want to give you everything.
Please let me soothe your soul.
Please let me love you more.
And longer.
My heart wants to protect your heart.
Heal your heart.
Hold your heart in my gentle hands and give you forehead kisses until your world feels peaceful.
And full of joy.
I will offer that to you, love.
If you only let me.
I will show you how much you mean to me.
How much your presence in my life means.
How happy I am that you are a part of this world.
My world.
I know I’ve been focused on my heartbreak, but suddenly it doesn’t matter anymore.
You are all that matters.
Please stay, love.